The Beautiful One looked at me over the Casual Fuckbuddy's shoulder. 'Where are your condoms?' she mouthes and I want to rip the Casual Fuckbuddy's heart out. Casual to the point of non-existance. I love her and I hate her. Everytime I look at her I want to touch her, trace the grooves of her hip bones, the curve of each rib, the ridges of her spine. I want to live in that perfect body. Everything is slightly blurred. Diet pills and vodka.
'Daisy? Put it down. I think you've had enough - you're losing control'
Don't make me laugh. I lost control when I fell in love with you.
I can honestly say I know how you feel and unfortunately experience has given me nothing. Only thing I can say is Good luck, stay focused on what you want and you'll come out thinner on the other side. Sorry that's all I have...
ReplyDeletebeautiful post. you show emotion well. you should think about writing a book. i only wish i could write as well as you can. you have an amazing gift.
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