home alone... last night i think i made a huge mistake... i invited the guy from Beautiful One's party around and it was just me and him, writhing on the sofa. i've been binging all week and just thinking about him touching my rolls of flab makes me shudder but still... there he was. We were lying in my bed and he asked me if he could ask me a question. but then he got up abruptly, put on his clothes and left. I lay in my bed, looking at the clothes strewn across the floor and i couldn't even cry. i chose this.